wasn’t such a big fucking deal. I don’t understand why people around me have to constantly bash on everyone for doing something they don’t like. When, first of all, they’ve never done it before, so who are they to judge?

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I feel weird. I haven’t felt like this in a while. I don’t know if it’s the high, or just the fact that I realized a lot just now. It’s scary. I haven’t been so aware of what’s going on around me…and I’m just now taking a deep breathe of it all. How could I have been so dumb….thinking that everything would just happen because I said so, and I wouldn’t do anything about it….it’s my actual a-ha orgasm. I see things in color now. I see things in perspective now. I actually see things, feel things, taste things….everything. Everything around me…it’s all that I am and see and feel. I have a lot to do…a long list. I’ve been such a procrastinator….this has to end here and it has to end now. This is my last chance, I can feel it…I have to actually take it and make the best of it before it’s too late. I fear failure, I fear love, I fear so much..I tend to just fear. My brain feels like it’s going to rip open, sometimes it literally can’t hold all of this so fast. Merriweather Post Pavillion-Animal Collective, you’re giving me strength right now…I need to get everything done…no matter what…no more excuses…no more “I’ll do it later!” now, now, now, NOW and NOW is NOW and I have to do it with everything in me.

• Online worksheet for Biology
• Log Article
• Golf Balls
• Human bones
• Ma’m article
• STUDY FOR FRENCH QUEST
• PROJECT
• Outline
• Make reminder for Beno’s appointment and physical form for Christopher

I don’t know how to feel right now. Last night….was weird. The weirdest thing that’s ever happened to me. I don’t know what happened, I really don’t. I wasn’t high. There’s no way. I didn’t feel real, like I wasn’t in my body. It was a really weird feeling. It’s keeping me thinking about it…a lot. Should I just shrug it off and move on? Yeah, I need to. Tomorrow, I start off fresh & new. I want to be a new person tomorrow. Yep. 

So MGMT is releasing a new album soon and that means that there’s new music to listen to and it’s obviously going to be really great and that means they will go on tour and if they go on tour they will come here and I will see them live again and cry before it cry the during the show and cry everyday after and be forever happy and sad at the same time omfg I can’t wait.

I am officially going to study Psychology, to help people mentally, because it’s what makes us the person we are, and it brings true happiness, and I believe the people in my life (Andrea, my mother, my father) deserve that.